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So, recently, I discovered that cold drinks and cold food send my tooth into a world of hurt; on the good side, this means that there isn't an infection and I can feel.

I have this tooth with two holes in them, and they send me into agonizing pain. It may not be as important than anything else, it's still something I can't ignore and needs to be addressed. I'm thinking I will have to flatout remove it, no filling or a replacement. I may not be happy with a tooth missing the next time someone gets a look at my smile, but its better then feeling like someone drove a kitchen knife into my gums.
I figured I start off this journal with a mood setter. Play or not to to your content. Also, this is a long wall of text, so I simply ask for your patience since I have a long story to tell.


(And yes, it's a dead give away I still like the MH series.)

So, I just finished winter quarter, taking my CASAS tomorrow, and then advising day starts Tuesday next week and I will have two weeks to take a break from education. I look forward to some R & R. ^^

Over the days, I do feel I have grown wiser and spiritually closer to God then I honestly thought I ever was. I thought for the mistakes I made in my youth just wouldn't be redeemable for the life I have now, but I learned I was ever so wrong. It gives more weight to "God moves in mysterious ways" then it ever does. He provides me with education and has let me be a part of a small group that takes part in our home on tuesdays (sadly our last lesson is tuesday) and It blows my mind how he can deliver a message through someone else, or through a situation. Especially how he can take anything and make it powerful and moving, it's gotten to the point when he does these things and I can identify its his presence, it feels like a broken guitar string goes off in my head; you know, how it kinda crumples up and goes off with a loud "TWANG"?

We did a study on being a "fisher of men" for our small group, and it talks about how it means to fish for men an-- no, not in the literal sense. It happens in the passage of the bible when Jesus walked up to two figures who were on a fishing boat, holding fishing nets (you know who they both are) to leave their current task and come join him. They left their boats and everything and followed him, and through Jesus's guidance and how the event carry out in God's word is how to reach out to others through means that are peaceful, to be concerned for God's people and their health and welfare, to keep them in prayer, to lift them up, to serve God by serving his people. And I learned this is what he wants us to do, to be and grow up like. We may not be perfect at it, but our experience, our personality and our attitude can change when were moved by God, and the amazing things he can do, even if they're so subtle instead of a grand display to wow the daylights out of us.

But I also have become aware how... we just make it complicated, rather than understanding that God made it simple, when he had sent his one and only Son to die on the cross, to pay for our sins, rather then being the gods we think who condemn, chastise and punish to no end even over one mistake. He loves us to no end, to go that far to redeem us from an enemy who will see to any means to condemn us, to die on the cross to pay for our sins.

I come to understand there is just some things we must willingly leave behind, lest they simply make us bitter or tempt us to fall short in our relationship in Christ. But boy... we definitely made it complicated, back then and some who doesn't understand God's Word entirely.

It came down how we had to believe we had to be completely perfect, to never make one mistake ever again, to go to great, miserable length's to repeat past transgressions, or it's a permanent one-way trip to hell. That atheism was the devils tool to wreak havoc, that you had to have the devil (physically) beaten out of you to be saved (it's not pretty), and how we can be so forceful of our belief on other people just turns them away or can cause detrimental things to happen to themselves and the people around them, it definitely wasn't graceful to do the things we did just to "try" and save people, and in some cases try to use our position or God's Word for selfish reasons, like trying to gain control or to extort people.

...But Jesus died for that to pay for every sin, and yes we do have to leave behind anything just... oh I don't know how to put it... if just spiritually destructive... too tempting and always have lead us down something that just does more harm to the people around us, and to us. It wouldn't matter who you are or what you did, Jesus paid the biggest price that I don't have the words for, and he can wait for you to notice him, to talk to him, to invite him. I could be the most grumpy badger for many years and try to distance himself from him if I never met Christ, he would walk with my diligently... and he would wait patiently, I could never believe in me, he still loves me and would patiently wait. I could be the stereotypes of what an atheism or whatever some person is who is portrayed of never seeing any evidence enough to prove he is real or if the risk is worth the reward, he would be waiting patiently, and if he decides he won't give the answer outright, he finds a way to answer some of our questions or change our outlook with what he does to something that is amazing. All he asks is that you invite him, and let him be a part of your life. Let him work and you'll see and experience things from a different or much bigger spectrum.

We are to live our lives like Christ, but we don't need to be forceful, and destructive to get people to believe... God respects our wills to believe or not, and loves us to be patient and walk with us through the lives he is a part of our life, or in waiting to be a part of our life.

Simply being inviting, concerning, helpful, loving, tolerant, and well... being the crutch someone needs when they're down and out, the brother/sister someone could need, and the love someone is willing to give can have a bigger impact, than to shove a bible in their face and demand they 'repent' or harass them with threats. There is a difference between telling a message and making an impact the way Christ did with Kindness, love, mercy and compassion; and just being aggressive, bitter to the point it affects how you interact to people and being generally mean spirited definitely will turn them off (Didn't 'Extra Credits' make a point on this that blind anger, without direction just gets no one anywhere, only this is about being nothing but being angry, bitter, and incredibly mean to people just to make them believe?). Life isn't really about just trying go through life completely perfect or just dive out and end everything before it gets to be too much, but I'd feel like just a preacher preaching to a choir to say we were born to worship God, to worship our Lord and Savior. And to understand that... John 3:16 ""For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. 17"For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him.…"?

In the end... we have been there, and because people lives differently (and I might tell this poorly, I admit. I'm half-asleep while typing this) then what we do, does not make them irredeemable, some are just finding the answer to go out on, the path they can't find to discover where they can go, or it can be someone they need to encounter that gives them the right push. Sometimes we can get something we don't expect, but it haves us take a leap and it comes out alright in our relationship in Christ, and we can't just completely chastise them. Were all human, and even us as Christians are human, we can fall short. Jesus didn't die for nothing, and God wants us to bring this good news, this promise he made to us to let it be known to all the people around us, of every nation, of every tongue, heck, even to those who believe in things differently, that they may come to Christ, and that they receive that eternal life.

I'll be honest, as a confession, I'm not perfect, some of the ways I feel make me feel like I am worth as much as salt, that I can't amount to much with my disability... I can be selfish, predictable with bad habits. Heck, despite the fact I am capable in a fight or can be very violent in those extremely rare cases I feel someone is going to harm me... I'm passive and philosophical (contradicts don't it?), I like to figure out things through making a mistake and not leave it a 100% to people stopping me from what I am doing and tell me how to do it 'correctly', I honestly feel I learn and retain what I learn if I can just try, whether I succeed or fail, even if its dangerous. It just turns me off to, if I can make a metaphor, to try my first hand at a sword or weapon, but immediately someone shoves me away and tries to lock the weapon up as tight as possible just cause they don't know who I am or let me try to better understand how to use it before deciding I shouldn't touch it again or if I can be seen as a responsible person to not abuse my privilege to use one. Heck, I'm biased to believe that sometimes you can do some harm just trying to intercept anyone trying their hand at something because you deem its dangerous, and it just leads to more bad consequences, that you sometimes just have to wait and see what they do with something or someone to know what to make of what that person is or what he or she does to come to any conclusion, save for common sense is when someone is showing signs of murderous expressions and intent, you ought to stop them.

But you know what? God has given me strength to over come my disability, and use it to my own benefit (it still just speeds along like a Desktop being overclocked) to do and learn things that would take the normal individual to take longer to understand or do well on their first try. I've become very tolerant and patient to a fault. I am very observant and can often notice some things people normally don't, especially when being able to find the "tells" people give off when they express something, or how their bodily posture is, or the timing is when they do anything to give off that something is wrong without having to say it (I'm not exaggerating, you could shift your hip just subtly and I will notice, or even twitch your ear. This might be why I am excelling in Life Science for my class and in Monster hunter, studying the relationships, interactions and reactions in humans and animals is quite entertaining, especially seeing how a Great Jaggi fights a Quropeco because the Quropeco imitated it's call, and called it to where the Quro was and got it mad. Sneaky bird wyvern, and i know how to fight any monster alone just from examining their tells. Call me Sherlock then.) I'm still pretty strong, but I'm not exactly a buff surfer to be honest ;) Haha! And I believe He has endowed me with a lot of wisdom, ho boy I can't really describe it.

My bottom point is God loves everyone, he doesn't play favorites, he did not come to just stamp us out and make sure we understood that we were mistakes, he loves his creations regardless of who they are. As too simply and easy it is in its own right, he has made it simple. *holds out hand* He wants you to have eternal life with him, to be his child, his creation, forever. With a Father that loves, who is merciful, who is compassionate, who walks with us and is our crutch when we need one, who carried us through it all. He wants you to have it, just come take it. Understand the love he has for you, and be that example when you share it to others. =J

Phew... that's a mouthful. I probably shouldn't of done this before bed time. But I felt I had to get it out there and share the news ^^

Also, if your wondering about the title, yeah. I got a new Monster Hunter Tri for my Wii console. Feels good when your save before the server shut down is still intact and you can roll through monsters with your badass build ^^ It still bites though, I wish they could give us the tools to host our own servers when they decide to shut down theres. I miss playing with players...

...Maybe someday I'll try to make some money to get a Wii U and a copy of Monster hunter U 4 or U 3, as much as I like MH Tri and the swimming mechanic that made it so unique (I seriously don't have trouble with the camera and controls for the water sections), they are removed in later installments due to being too confusing for players... which I don't understand how they can be confusing. It's not that hard, or its just me adapting quickly to them. I guess it's back on land again. ... I wonder if the next MH series will take things to the sky?

Welp, Goodnight, God bless and sweet dreams ^^
I know I've already greeted everyone for Valentines. But one thing I haven't posted yet since yesterday is something that has been weighing on my heart since.

I wanted to say thank you, to everyone out there who has loved me, blessed me, tolerated me and put up with me. I admit I can be selfish, intolerable, even a jerk, and that I've been inexperienced, awkward or inept. But I wanted to say thank you all who has loved me and has let me be a part of your lives, and that I can let you be a part of mine.

God bless, love you all, and (late) Happy valentines day!
Happy Valentines, ladies and gents!
I had to memorize and rewrite the entire first amendment. Man it's exhausting trying to rewrite it word for word >.<
So, recently, I discovered that cold drinks and cold food send my tooth into a world of hurt; on the good side, this means that there isn't an infection and I can feel.

I have this tooth with two holes in them, and they send me into agonizing pain. It may not be as important than anything else, it's still something I can't ignore and needs to be addressed. I'm thinking I will have to flatout remove it, no filling or a replacement. I may not be happy with a tooth missing the next time someone gets a look at my smile, but its better then feeling like someone drove a kitchen knife into my gums.

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Thank you very much for the fave! :icongabumonplz:
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You're both welcome! ^^
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Thank you for faving me.  I'm glad you like the cartoons.
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Thanks for the fav dude, glad you like the MH Pokémon mock up ;)
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Heh, as an old Gen 1 and Gen 2 trainer, and a lover of the Monster Hunter series, I couldn't resist! The menu is even nicely done, I really like the idea for detail.

(though as much as I'd like to see this kinda thing happen, with Pok'emon going completely feral like this being a totally dark twist from the usual pok'emon universe of cooperating with them, I feel a lot of hate or conflict could be generated from it existing xD )

Nice work, man!
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Hehe, thanks. Lucky I suppose for those people is that I've been working on MH Pokemon sprites so they wont have to go out and slay a Pikachu XD although that would be as funny as heck in a dark way. Also nice poetry, man.  The Romantic sea was quite lovely. ;)
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There's always something to get a laugh out of, as long as we all don't go too far ;) And just consider other people when we do it.

And thank you! Take care!
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thank you. she's gone now
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... -holds tight- :< ... I-i'm ... really sorry. I ... will be praying for comfort for you.
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thank u
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Thank you for the +fav :D (Big Grin) 
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Ohey Xemmy! Danke for the faves :)
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Also, howdy!
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You're welcome, my lovely Sis. God bless ^^
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Jesus Loves You by dreamsofwords  Thank you so much for the fave much appreciated :huggle:
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Thanks for adding "survivors" to your faves
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thank you for the fav. :)
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Thank you, and good luck.
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