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  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Our God is an Awesome God!
  • Reading: ...Um... Nothing?
  • Watching: The screen :P
  • Playing: (I wish I could be playing Warframe now.)
  • Eating: Biscuits and Gravy
  • Drinking: Koolaid
With that, I just finished two English classes and got credit for them both! I'm so close to my diploma that I can taste it!

Sorry if I haven't been chatty, I've been into Warframe for a while now and been really into my education. There is quite a lot I overlooked as a teen (man I wish I shouldn't have focused so much on my angst back then...) so I can say I learned quite a lot, more than I thought I'd ever need.

So for this winter, Christmas and New years, I get the entire month off till the next quarter, which will be next year! Still, this may not be new for the well educated and academic folks out there but there is quite a lot to learn. I thought I knew all that I needed to know when I was younger, and I thought that everything I knew then was all I was ever going to need (broad description, eh?), but... I was wrong, and I admit that I was pretty narrow minded and arrogant.

Welp. I'm hoping the next new year will bring more promise, the more I become aware of our world, it becomes more beautiful, but it also shows the dark sides in it too. I'm aware with the recent events, such as ISIS, and I'm not to fond of their extremist views and neither of Donald Trump rather hyped-up path towards getting to office. I don't think believing banning Muslims from America is going to help those escapees who want to live in this world and not die to extremists who want to destroy and kill. I'm going to leave it there since it would lead to a heated conversation or spark the responses for one.

-stretches and slumps into chair- Time to sip more Chamomi-- speaking of, I must say, Tea is really amazing! Especially with a tablespoon of honey in it. I also learned that hot cocoa is amazing with half-a-teaspoon of sugar and a bit of french vanilla.

Please stay safely out there, everyone. And drive safely, and keep warm! I wish you all a merry Christmas and a happy New Year.
  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Our God is an Awesome God!
  • Reading: ...Um... Nothing?
  • Watching: The screen :P
  • Playing: (I wish I could be playing Warframe now.)
  • Eating: Biscuits and Gravy
  • Drinking: Koolaid
So, tomorrow on Monday, the 21st, I'll be starting my classes and be taking this quarter until December 4th.

I'll be there for almost the whole day, 8:30 AM to 2:05 PM, if you are speaking to me at anytime you will have to forgive me if I seem spaced out or distracted since I have to deal with the homework or the information I will be processing.

Cheers!
  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Our God is an Awesome God!
  • Reading: ...Um... Nothing?
  • Watching: The screen :P
  • Playing: (I wish I could be playing Warframe now.)
  • Eating: Biscuits and Gravy
  • Drinking: Koolaid
So, with school coming up next week at the Yakima Valley Community College, I might be busier than I usually am. So if I seem distracted, I am working on my homework.

The idea of having to juggle school and searching for a job looks to be very stress inducing. I know that I'm going to have to do it so I can help make some extra income into the home, I wish I could set it aside till I have my diploma.

The stress is kinda working me into a bit of depression, I know people have gone through it before but the experience and feeling for it can be unique in a way I can't ignore.

Best thing to do is to lay all that stress, worry and depression at the feet of Jesus and see where he carries me, and what he will want me to do.

If anyone can take this hurdle and make it possible to jump over, it's Him.
  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Our God is an Awesome God!
  • Reading: ...Um... Nothing?
  • Watching: The screen :P
  • Playing: (I wish I could be playing Warframe now.)
  • Eating: Biscuits and Gravy
  • Drinking: Koolaid
Howdy ya'll! Those who read my journals will read on whats going on with me, I don't do much in the way of poetry and art since I don't have much interest anymore; save for the occasional inspiration. The following content will be a wall of text (sort of) and a bit heavy. Patience is required. :)

As the title reads, I thought I'd do an update journal on myself while getting on that subject. It may come to as a surprise for some people that I wasn't as in touch with my feelings as I would let on. I may delve on it occasionally but as I was younger and... trying to make everything simple in a rather absurd way, I listened more to my brain. Those who lived to be my friend after dealing with me would know I am blunt, to the point, and have a bad habit to not think things through before speaking about it. I can often come off as a jerk, heartless or something else else considered offensive, which isn't my intention.

A lot of that pays to the fact I would spend too much time on the computer trying to find the answers I would like rather than listen for God's calling and receiving his unfailing love. And the fact that I discovered about myself is that I try to view life as one, big micromanaged system. If someone were to know something, I would expect everyone I interacted with to know as well. It's hard to describe it, but my brain process was stuck in a phase of either "If you know you should be doing it, you don't even think about not doing it and just do it now despite what can happen." or the opposite of "If you know you shouldn't, just stop. completely. Despite everything that happens and will happen... Stop. Right. Now." only imagine it from my thought process like some angry giant just blasting down on you with a voice deep enough to be mistaken for an earthquake.

I was hard on myself in this way too. I mean I am generally nice, and I am opened minded, I can be firm as needed as well. Back then I still had things to figure out and things to sort out, in some cases I didn't want to figure out or sort anything out and try to make sense of the chaos as it was. Plus my poor choices and keeping to huddle to the internet has done some mental and emotional damage to a point that I can have invasive thoughts and twitch my right hand. Most of that history though I won't delve into. I just kept myself to a metaphorical knife point, if I felt I committed something akin to a cardinal sin, I would just mentally assault myself with condensing thoughts. Because of that lifestyle I also kept mostly indoors, with occasional contact with my church and the congregation I came to love like a family. There was so much I could learn about the world around me but I kept myself narrowminded... somehow... that kept me shortsighted. In that way I was troubled and didn't want my family to know about it and just sort things out. I didn't have much of a healthy relationship with my family and Christ either as I wanted to let on.

However, God is a loving, living breathing God, and pretty dedicated in ways I didn't think possible (again, I had my problems and was short sighted), and I think I can see how God can move in such mysterious and unpredictable ways.

This is going to sound absurd but a fandom video has given me some insight on on some topics as it was being taken seriously. It's difficult to explain this as well but it definitely gave me some new ways to think and has changed my out look on things.

Another is from taking a step out into the world, but also a step into myself and to actually listen to my heart and my brain for once, instead of that part of my that has nothing better to do than judge myself. I learned quite a lot about myself over the course of time, and my interactions with my family and Christ has improved! Heck, being in touch with my feelings helped clear my head and I can think and feels things in new ways I thought simply impossible. I feel embarrassed since I'm already a grown man that should have done this back then in his youth, but I just couldn't straighten things out and I still wanted to handle it myself. It will sound weird but it's like feeling my heart beat and feeling that fuzziness for the first time. Like petting the most luxurious fur on an exotic animal! It tingles! Feels great.

In all that, God has sorted out a lot of my baggage and repaired what I simply couldn't. And he has helped me through the interactions and examples of my friends and the things I interact or observe from as well. I have had that same interaction with my family and it has gotten better.  God is good, and can do amazing things. Even :iconpoppycorn99: latest journal on "Masterstroke - Why Does God Allow So Much Pain?" explains that God is not a evil being whom we make out to be, especially when there are those who spend so much trying to prove he either doesn't exist or is some horrible being. We often forget one important factor in why there is pain, destruction and the like: The Devil. I can testify this is a good video with a good evidence, it may not cover everything in the kitchen sink for any questions outside of what the video contains, but I can assure for those who are looking for answers can sit through this without it bring cringe worthy (by which I define as cringe worthy is that some who preach will do it for control and power, just recite things from the bible just to look impressive... or minister with just hate and aggression).

In the long run... this changes so many things, but they got better as God intended. I give thanks to the Living, Breathing God, for his love, mercy, compassion, and his saving grace for carrying me from inside the fire to a soothing healing river. I figured this would be good to post about so people who had this problem can also relate and find some answers for themselves.

God bless you all and take care!

Sincerely,

Weregaruru/Xemgoa
  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: Our God is an Awesome God!
  • Reading: ...Um... Nothing?
  • Watching: The screen :P
  • Playing: (I wish I could be playing Warframe now.)
  • Eating: Biscuits and Gravy
  • Drinking: Koolaid
With that, I just finished two English classes and got credit for them both! I'm so close to my diploma that I can taste it!

Sorry if I haven't been chatty, I've been into Warframe for a while now and been really into my education. There is quite a lot I overlooked as a teen (man I wish I shouldn't have focused so much on my angst back then...) so I can say I learned quite a lot, more than I thought I'd ever need.

So for this winter, Christmas and New years, I get the entire month off till the next quarter, which will be next year! Still, this may not be new for the well educated and academic folks out there but there is quite a lot to learn. I thought I knew all that I needed to know when I was younger, and I thought that everything I knew then was all I was ever going to need (broad description, eh?), but... I was wrong, and I admit that I was pretty narrow minded and arrogant.

Welp. I'm hoping the next new year will bring more promise, the more I become aware of our world, it becomes more beautiful, but it also shows the dark sides in it too. I'm aware with the recent events, such as ISIS, and I'm not to fond of their extremist views and neither of Donald Trump rather hyped-up path towards getting to office. I don't think believing banning Muslims from America is going to help those escapees who want to live in this world and not die to extremists who want to destroy and kill. I'm going to leave it there since it would lead to a heated conversation or spark the responses for one.

-stretches and slumps into chair- Time to sip more Chamomi-- speaking of, I must say, Tea is really amazing! Especially with a tablespoon of honey in it. I also learned that hot cocoa is amazing with half-a-teaspoon of sugar and a bit of french vanilla.

Please stay safely out there, everyone. And drive safely, and keep warm! I wish you all a merry Christmas and a happy New Year.

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Dream-Angel-Artista Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2016  Professional Traditional Artist
Bonjour my Brother :hug: Hapy New Years 2016 too!dream-angel-artista.deviantart…
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You too!! Sis! :hug:
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Thanks for the favorite!
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You're welcome! You're work looks appealing! Though I recommend fixing your profile page a bit more, none the less, good work!
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Will do! Just started the page up so I'll be adding to it!
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Sweet! Welcome to DA (Though I'm not really a representative) and hopefully you like your stay here. :)

Also, happy Thanksgiving!
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Thanks for faving the Undertale/Scraggy pic. XD 
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You're welcome!

I swore there was some canny resemblance! xD
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Thanks for the fave! ^_^
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You're mighty welcome!
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Ello!
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Howdy hi!! =) How have you been, big sis? :)
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Thanks a lot for the fave, mate! :iconsniperplz:
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thank you for the fave
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You're welcome, Doeray! You are in my prayers!! <3
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Thank you sooo much for the favorite
your support has really been a blessing
God bless you and keep you , friend:hug:
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You're welcome ^^
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You're welcome. I'm sorry for your loss, and I will hold you in prayer, Daydream!

Take care of yourself!
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Thank you sooo much for the fav its very encouraging
I'm glad you like the work ,it means a lot and 
God bless you and keep you , friend
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You're welcome, Rashad! Take care of yourself and God bless you!
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thank you, with God's grace ill be fine 
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Hello!
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Hi! Welcome! Pull up a keyboard & drink and stay a while!
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